Adventure seeker on an empty street,
Just an alley creeper, light on his feet
A young fighter screaming, with no time for doubt
With the pain and anger can't see a way out,
It ain't much I'm asking, I heard him say,
Gotta find me a future move out of my way,
I want it all, I want it all, I want it all, and I want it now,
I want it all, I want it all, I want it all, and I want it now.
The Rock band, Queen, made this song famous as a released single back in 1989. No one other than diehard Queen fans really know the lyrics to this song until it comes to the main part of the song where the constant repetition of “I want it all, I want it all, I want it all, and I want it now” comes into play.
Can I be honest with you? There are parts of the journey where I just hate waiting. I mean I seriously hate waiting! I get more tired and wearier waiting than I do actually moving. I’m not speaking of a physical waiting or a physical moving, I’m speaking of a place where we all have been or are right now. I’m referring to the times where we have to wait on God. Spiritual patience is not one of my virtues. I truly wish that it was but it’s just not. I’m in a season of personal anguish but yet holding on for dear life to the ONE who holds the future. There are days when I feel like I’m losing my grip and then there are days when I just won’t let go no matter what. My dad would often refer to me has being hard headed when I was a kid. I don’t believe much has changed in my forty-four years on this earth.
I’m ten years into the wilderness of waiting. I am a licensed pastor, husband, and father who desperately wants to hit his sweet spot. I often refer to the sweet spot being that position on the team that just seemed to fit. Perhaps for you it was Quarterback. Maybe it was Point Guard. Or maybe it was just being the Ball Boy. For me it was playing Center Midfield for the University of Valley Forge Soccer team. I played soccer all of my life but I had to wait until I was a 28 year old junior until I played THE position that turned into my sweet spot. It felt good. I was the captain of my team and I even won a few awards. I’m asking God on a daily basis to please allow me to hit my sweet spot in life. I don’t know the positon on the team that God wants me to play but I do know that I just want it all and I want it now!
The Bible says in Isaiah 40:31 that, “those who WAIT on the Lord shall RENEW their strength. They WILL mount up with wings like eagles, they WILL run and not be weary, and they WILL walk and not faint. There is a purpose in the waiting:
1. We will have renewed strength.
A friend of mine once told me that our times of waiting are creating and inner strength in us that we don’t necessarily feel or see but that one day it will be made known.
2. We will fly like an eagle.
There is this ability to soar like there isn’t a care in the world. The headwinds of life can’t drag us down; instead we just open our arms and learn to soar above them.
3. We will run like the wind blows.
Forrest Gump has nothing on us. We have waited. We have the endurance to run all day and not get tired. We are determined. We are steadfast and we will not be denied. Our spirits are charged and ready for the race ahead.
4. We will keep putting one foot in front of the other.
The strength gained in the waiting won’t allow us to faint at the first sign of trouble. We are much too strong to be moved. We will get up every morning and put one foot in front of the other because to do nothing is no longer an option.
There is a purpose in the waiting. Our renewed strength will give us the ability to bring glory and honor to God. He gets all of the praise. It’s always about Him and less about us. There is a purpose in the waiting. My flesh and my spirit are in a daily tug of war. Some days I feel like I’m winning and other days I feel like I’m losing.
My family and I have a theme for this year. It is just one word; BELIEVE.
We BELIEVE there is a purpose in the waiting. We BELIEVE there is a redeeming purpose even in the bad decisions. We BELIEVE there is a purpose in the pain, the suffering, and the tears.
Even though I want it all, I want it all, I want it all, and I want it now, we BELIEVE there is purpose in the waiting. I just hope we can hurry up and get through it;)
Jamie Zirkle currently resides with his wife and son in his hometown of Winchester, VA. He is licensed with the Assemblies of God. Jamie continues to serve as a lay leader in Victory Church while he waits on God to open the next ministry opportunity for him. You can read more articles from Jamie at his blog (http://jamiezirkle.wordpress.com/) and connect with him on LinkedIn